Whoo. Tonight we're going to Austria! Our free trip that we've won at Holland Casino's - off course, because I'd never go to a cold resort when I'm planning a holiday hehe. I think it's going to be fun, we can go to this big swimming pool in the Freizeit Arena every day! Haha this is so bad, I am excited about swimming while I actually have to follow ski lessons... Hope the hotel's going to be great too, I read several reviews on internet but a lot of people say that the host and hostess are unfriendly people. Hmm we'll see. It's nice to have a week off and be away from everyday life. I'll be back next week!

I didn't expect much of Terminator: the Sarah Connor Chronicles. I wasn't even enthusiastic about the first episode. I mean, is this woman supposed to play Sarah Connor? I liked John though, and the funny thing is you could also see his hairdo evaluate throughout the series - from no hair in his face to hair in front of his eyes hehe. Ok so that stuff wasn't really important, the important thing is that I started to like the series.

Yesterday I watched the last three episodes. Don't want to spoil everyone here, but omg - I HATE THIS ENDING!!!!

I really hope they'll make a second season, because this really can't be the end. My b/f and I were stunned. He even checked if this really was the end of episode 9 - and it really was, unfortunately.

Think I'm going to watch Terminator 3 again this weekend.

I was sitting in the city bus with a bunch of old people, who were talking about how they slowly loose their friends and neighbors. Yeah well, it's really sad yeah on that age, but that's not an excuse to skip your morning shower! Ugh, that old lady who sat in front of me, really smelled like... well, I don't know, but it wasn't a good smell!

And I can't believe how rude old people can be! I was standing at a fish stand at the market yesterday, and I stood kind of vertically behind an old lady. Not even really exactly behind her. And when she wanted to leave with her newly bought fish, she stood on my foot. As girlie as I am, I said ouch. And you know what she said? "Yeah well, you stood exactly behind me, so I could not see that." And than she just left! SHE LEFT. Without saying sorry! How rude! I was speechless, as I always am in these kind of situations. I couldn't believe it, I didn't even exactly stand behind her, I mean, why would I do that? Especially after my experience earlier this morning! Oh and even if I did, why don't you just walk where you're going? If you make a turn while driving your car, you also watch out, and you don't just drive, hoping that there's no one around you! Old people really frustrated me that day.

I was at my parent's house and I was watching old photos from our holidays in Portugal and Indonesia, almost a decade ago. I was really skinny and I still had my own eyebrows. In ten years I gained more ass and I lost more eyebrow. Other than that, I look still the same as I did back then. Hmmm.

as black as the night can get
everything is safer now
there's always a way to forget
once you learn to find a way how

in the blur of serenity
where did everything get lost?
the flowers of naivety
buried in a layer of frost

the smell of sunshine
i remember sometimes

thought he had it all before they called his bluff
found out that his skin just wasn't thick enough
wanted to go back to how it was before
thought he lost everything
then he lost a whole lot more

a fool's devotion
swallowed up in empty space
the tears of regret
frozen to the side of his face

the smell of sunshine
i remember sometimes

i've done all i can do
could i please come with you?
sweet smell of sunshine
i remember sometimes

After we had our nice steak dinner at Los Argetinos, me and my friends W. and S. went to Vapiano to get our desert.

We went to the counter to get our Vapiano cards which we need to use to order our deserts, and we received our cards from the girl behind the counter. It seemed like she had her eyebrows tattooed on, but I'm not sure, it just looked that way. Anyway. We wanted to go to the toilets first because, well, you know I think. We had to take a leak off course. So we went to the toilets, and there were three of them. The first one was occupied. The second one was suffering from an old turd swimming in the toilet water. Eww. I almost had to vomit when I saw that brown thing in the water. The third one was, as if life wasn't worse enough, SMELLY. Yup. You read that right. Smelly in caps lock - SMELLY.

So we stood there, looking at eachother. The eyebrow girl from the counter also went to the toilets. I wondered why she didn't clean the toilets. I mean, she works there. Hell, even I cleaned the toilets when I was a supermarket cashier. Toilets don't clean themselves.

She decided to flush toilet number two, and one of my friends went in. In the meantime, toilet number three was a little less smelly, so another one went in. In there I stood, waiting and holding in my pee. Finally, toilet number one was flushing. A woman came out, and I already suspected this was not a good thing. But off course, I still had hope and maybe it wouldn't be that bad. But unfortunately, off course, it was. I almost vomitted again! This smell was even more worse than toilet number three. This smell was fresh. Fresh and warm. Ewwww.

Luckily I could go to toilet number three after a minute or two.

The red spots are finally fading away. Pfff. Really pleased about that, because I looked and felt terrible!

I'm also happy that it's almost weekend. I almost wanted to take a day off today, because I'm so tired. But I didn't do it, I don't want to waste one holiday just because I'm tired... although the idea of a bed sounds really good... oh well.

Tonight (as if I'm not tired enough off course, such timing), me and some friends are going to watch Sam Shepard's True West. Our friend is playing a lead role in this play. It's his first own production from his own theater company Stichting Grimm, so I'm really curious about that.

Ok, back to work.

I thought if you ignore them, they would go away.

ARGH. I had even more red spots yesterday, and my lips and face were very red and thick. So I took my swollen body to the doctor, who prescribed me some medication. Within three days it will be over, he said.

I wonder what I was allergic to. I hope it's not the mushroomsoup I ate the other day, because I love mushroomsoup. :(

I am at my work right now and I am having a red rash, kind of like a skin eruption, all over my face and body. :( Red little lumpy spots. Fortunately, it doesn't hurt or itch. I didn't even notice it, until my boyfriend in the train said "Uh Vic, what's with your face?" Arrgghh.

It looks like an allergic reaction but I have no idea what I've done that could cause this. My cheeks are red and lumpy and warm. I was already feeling sick during the weekend, but now I look even more terrible!!! It never seems enough.