Whooo. Since december 18th is my birthday, I thought I'd treat myself on a brand new laptop. And I'm going to get rid of my old, noisy desktop. Seriously thinking about getting rid of my old loyal desktop, broke my heart - until I saw the new and improved Macbook and until I heard my desktop humming and rattling as crazy when I wanted to start Photoshop. And my desktop isn't mobile and since I always wanted a pretty (yes that's important for me - sorry but I don't think my Dell is that pretty) computer, I chose to buy a Macbook. I just ordered it online with the hoorays of my Apple-addicted boyfriend on the background. Ok back to work again...

YES FINALLY. I have the NIN tickets for march 16th. It costed me an hour of tension between Genesis fans (for some reason, the ticketsale also started for the Genesis show next year) in front of the store, but I got them. For the regular price.

Trent Reznor, finally!!!!

Ok now back to work...

It appears that the tickets for tomorrow's game expo are sold out. Oh well hate to say I told you so, but you know how men are lol j/k uh ANYWAY so if we're not going to tomorrow's game expo, I have all the time (read: until 10.15 am - after that they'll be sold out considering the fact that the tickets will go on sale at ten grrr) to get NIN tickets for an additional show they'll be giving on the 16th of march!!!! Yahoo. There's always a little bit of hope, maybe I get to see two NIN shows in march, and one of them can be seen for the NORMAL price instead of 30 euros more! Great news, huh?

I have learned my lesson - I am going to the ticketshop as early as I can (five minute walk from my house, how ironic is that after I missed out a few weeks ago! sshht) and I WILL GET THEM. I AM GOING. NOTHING CAN STOP ME NOW. I hope there won't be a lot of people in line in front of me tomorrow otherwise I'm going to explode. Seriously! Pfff. Tomorrow's saturday and I have to get up early... but hey, it's worth it. Trent, I'm doing this just for you. HAHA.

My grandma gave me and my b/f a mirror with the following text:

"God, grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
the courage to change the things I can;
and the wisdom to know the difference."

Yeah. Considering the fact that I can't always accept the things I cannot change, I know what I want for Christmas.... Hmz.

I am going to the game-expo next weekend. Boyfriend appeared to be a gamer too, I noticed about a month after we dated lol. Oh well.

It's monday again unfortunately, and for some reason I am still tired after the weekend. I am always tired in the morning, but on mondays it's just the worse of all days. Weekend's just too short.

Today started really well with an announcement about the probability of working overtime once in a while these months. Oh goody, just what I was waiting for; less free time this year! I haven't had a vacation this year, and I don't have any hobbies, friends or a real life, I mean who cares about that really, so why not? There is nothing much more fun than sitting behind a computer for eight, nine or maybe ten hours a day! I can't wait! Who needs free time anyway? I mean hello, you can catch up next year with an extra half day off for each night you work overtime, duuuhh. And besides, you can also get more money, and that's what really counts in life, right? Work4life.

Yes I'm still an immature little adolescent at heart. I'm curious if I'll ever learn...

"That's not pretty smart, huh?"

Omg I HATE that sentence. Especially in public, you know, with other people and stuff. Seriously, I don't like suggestive questions like this. Is he really expecting a serious answer to that, or does he really think I'm that big of a dumbass? Or does he really implicates that I'm stupid? Either way, it's not good.

"Well, you can step out of the busy environment to hear your phone ring."

Oh yeah. That's a smart one. Funny! A fucking truckdriver. You should go to fucking clown's college! I don't even think his smartass remark is that funny.

Pfff. What a relief to get that out of my system. I think it's great anger management, this blog. Well, on short terms it is. (because after all those months of blogging, I'm still an emotional angry wreck. Oh well some things you can never heal.)

I AM GOING TO SEE NIN LIVE IN MARCH!!!! FOR THE UNBELIEVABLE PRICE OF 65 EUROS A TICKET!

Oh well I don't care. I am going to see Trent Reznor. YAAAAY <3

But still, I can't believe that people on sites such as Ebay dare to sell them for double the price. I can say that I bought 'cheap' second hand tickets (or however you want to call those tickets that you buy from those thieves), after seeing prices such as 85 or 90 euros a ticket. I hope karma will get to those people. Grr.

Omg this is so funny. In a bad kind of way. Anyway... I think I attract guys like this.

In 2004, at my internship at an ICT service provider, my ex was downloading a lot of stuff like crazy. He got busted and after people got mad he had to quit the downloading off course. I told my current b/f about this and he had to laugh and called him a dumbass. LOL Anyway.

Guess who got busted today? LOL. Yes it's my man. I know working at a company who provides DSL can be pretty boring, and considering the high speed internet it is pretty tempting to download stuff, but I feel pretty ashamed for this right now... :$ although I didn't do it. Girls rule. Hahaha. But I do feel kind of sorry for him. He must be warm right now lol, he's looking kind of pale. But that's ok, it looks good with the red cheeks I've gotten after the embarrassment while those technical people (or whatever you call them) busted and humiliated him. Hmm.

I'm not pretty technical and although I have a degree in ICT, I don't know that much about networks and computers and stuff, but I do know that big brother is watching you. Especially in an ICT-related company.

First thing I did this morning is searching for thieves on the internet. You know, people who buy NIN tickets to sell them for a higher price, because they know it'll sell out. I know you just have to ignore them, and you don't have to support their actions by actually buying those tickets for two times the original price, but I just HAVE to see NIN. I HAVE TO.

So tonight I am going to buy two tickets from someone who wants to sell them for - off course - the unbelievably high price of 130 euros. And that's kind of 'cheap', considering the fact that there are actually people who want to sell them for 190 euros... :( I feel sad and poor. The tickets better be real, but I think they are because I asked for the receipt and I am going to get the tickets at his house. So I know where he lives in case they're not real. BUT THEY ARE. (yes I am trying to convince myself to trust them) Anyway. I can't wait until tonight, and until the 21st of March. <3

I sooo hope it works out.

omfg. I totally hate my life. I fucking called ticketservicce 9 o clock in the morning, just to hear that nin tickets will be available at 10 (fucking TEN) in the morning. So off course, I was foolish enough to call them at exactly ten, and 20 minutes (and 9 euro's - fucking thieves with their 45cnts per minute!!!!) later I heard the message that it was totally fucking sold out. Sold out in EIGHT minutes. Right now, I am wondering what if I just went to a ticketservicepoint, to get the tickets myself. You know, in real life, without a phone. But then maybe I would put efforts on something I can't have today and I'd maybe humiliate myself in a public place because right now I am seriously fucking crying - just because I don't have the fucking tickets and I am so ANGRY. I can't believe that I am too late, that I missed the boat. I was informed about the concert on time, I knew this. And I missed out on the tickets. LIFE totally SUCKS.

TRENT HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO ME.

I think I'm going to screw myself and search for tickets on ebay for unbelievably high prices. That's the only way to get to Trent, just like last year when I wanted to see a sold out show from Foo Fighters. That did work out though, so maybe there's a little bit of hope for me. Just a little.

Well, gotto go cry again. I think I have way too much hormones.

I am going to buy tickets tomorrow, for your concert in March. I am so excited! I hope the show goes on and nothing gets cancelled. Otherwise I am going to cry. SERIOUSLY.

With love,

Vicky

PS: Yes it's that time on the friday afternoon. I've worked enough and I want to go home.
:)

This world rejects me
This world threw me away
This world never gave me a chance
This world gonna have to pay

Well I don't believe in your institutions
I did what you wanted me to
And like the cancer in your system
I've got a little surprise for you

Something inside of me
has opened up its eyes
Why did you put it there?
Did you not realize?
This thing inside of me
It screams the loudest sound
Sometimes I think I could

Burn

I look down at where you're standing
Flock of sheep all on display
With all your lies piled up around you
I can take it all away

Something inside of me
has opened up its eyes
Why did you put it there?
Did you not realize
Something inside of me
It screams the loudest sound
Sometimes I think I could

I'm gonna burn this whole world down

I never was a part of you

I am your savior
I am corruption
I am the angel
Of your destruction
I am perversion
Secret desire
I am your future
Swallowed up in fire

While I am growing varicose and spider vains, and more and more ass every single day that I am working, I can happily announce that 2007 will start with a new sport school membership. They're building a new sport complex one street from our house. WITH POWERPLATES. So maybe that'll also help me lose excess hip and ass, beside cardio. My b/f and I can use the sport school's facilities every day that they're open - without any limits for almost 40 euros per month. Condition Fat burning process here I come!

And why is it that people talk about fucking WORK in lunchbreaks? There are other fun things in life too, you know. Seriously. I don't get it. I refuse to talk about work when I'm finally having a BREAK. Guess I'm the only one. Hmm. I feel so LEFT OUT. Bleh. I only want to drink my chocolatemilk in fun conversations. Is that a lot to ask? I guess my iPod and my unread unpopular weblog are my only friends today.

I don't know what it is with me, but I feel so cranky and angry nowadays!!! I just wanna be left alone right now, go home and sleep.

I am at my work right now (where else would I be - now that life is officially taken over by daytime jobs and traffic jams) and I am thinking about the holidays next month. I have asked a day off for me and my luvvrr on my birthday 18th of december, so yay we have exactly one day extra to sleep till late to waste half a day! (Yes I am so looking forward to it) And it'll be weird, not to work overtime in the store behind the counter because of the holidays like last year, but instead just working overtime in an office because of deadlines. Oh well, I'm kinda getting used to it.

Actually, I hope the holidays and winter and cold and stuff soon will be over, because these cold dark days are actually not good for my mood - artificial Christmas lights or not: I need real light, also known as the SUN...

Omg - I'm still at work and I am counting the minutes left before I can go home safely without people thinking that I'm going home too early. It's Vicky in Boringland right now and I can't believe that I still have to create more than two hundred (200! MORE THAN 200!) way too many rows in several Excel sheets and it's really pissing me off right now. This task is almost as boring as my summer job as a web editor for The Hague, or maybe even worse. I know that some things just have to be done, but I feel like a fucking datatypist. A tester who actually will be a typist for this next week, and who actually has to try and think before creating new testcases in Excel sheets, but has lost the gift of thinking because of its BRAINKILLING working level. Or should I say lack of level? I don't know, but even as a fucking cashier I had a more exciting workingday.

I know what has to be done, has to be done. But I'm starting to get moody just looking at my Excel working sheets.

Hooray for my post-pms mood.

I've been stationed here for work for just a few weeks, and I am already starting to act like an idiot. I wanted to get drinks for my coworkers, you know tea and stuff. And just when I was trying to walk back with a tray of hot water and hot chocolatemilk and cold water, I slipped because of my slippery new boots and all the liquids were spreading on both of my hands. I was happy that the liquids also included cold water, but with all the hot stuff I wasn't that happy. After I made a huge fool out of myself, I cleaned the mess up and tried to walk back as a normal human being. Mondays suck. Officially.

This weekend I was sitting in the tram with my b/f, and I was eating a very delicious chicken sandwich, when suddenly someone ruined my appetite. Mobile phones nowadays are so multifunctional that they almost lose their primary purpose as a phone, people now use them as a ghettoblaster, preferably in public places such as public transport. And I don't want to offend people who actually enjoy hiphop, but why is it always hiphop? So there was this guy sitting behind us, listening to hiphop on his new hip Samsung, ruining my tram ride! It's so anti-social. And I really hate it when people are forcing me to listen to their music when I actually really don't want to.

Omg!!!! FINALLY. My wish has come true and it has to be announced in caps lock on my log: NIN EUROPEAN TOUR DATES 2007!!! And Holland's on the list too! They'll be playing in Paradiso Amsterdam in March. I have already set my alarm on november the 11th, when pre-sale starts here in Holland. Trent, here I come again! Wiiiieeeh.