Things are going so great lately! I am busy applying for jobs and signing up again at employment agencies, and just before the weekend started I was happy that I got myself an assignment for someone via my uncle's company. I thought, this is the point where I would make some real money. They said they wanted me asap. I mean, asap, now that is something, right? Anyway. Yesterday, just after my boring work at the local supermarket, I got an email from the person who I thought would hire me. And the email said that they wanted someone with more experience: SO IT WASN'T GOING TO BE ME. This is the point where I wonder who wants to give an unexperienced ex-student the chance to gain some experience? The world sucks. And guess what, I already quit my job at the supermarket! Hooray! Like I said, things are going great lately.

Oh well. I was about to look if the employment agencies have work for me anyways, so I won't make a big deal out of this shit. You can't be a cashier for eternity. So I better find myself a job soon. I am going to call the agency tomorrow. They pay me better anyways.

The skin on my face is starting to peel off as a result of last week's peeling I had. The skin that has already peeled off, left me with great soft skin, so I am really impatient right now... I want all of the old skin to be removed! Hehe.

Tomorrow's my job interview in The Hague, and I just called another company who invited me to come over at the end of this week. My uncle joins me in this one, since we have plans to let them hire me via his company. I don't know what to choose now though. Both jobs are almost pretty much the same, so choosing isn't made very easy. Unless one of them doesn't want me lol. I wish I knew which one. I hope I get a summer break though :( Yeah I know I still feel like a lazy student. I think I really need to work on my attitude; I really have to lose the student one.

But right now, I am so bored. I wish someone could amuse me for a while. Where are all the fun people?

I think I'm going to make some calls and stalk everyone, and watch the OC.

I had the shock of my life just a few minutes ago... I plugged my CHI straightener in and it did absolutely nothing! The light didn't turn on, nothing. So I was pretty pissed off, but decided to leave it plugged in and than I sat behind my computer again. But suddenly, I smelled something... I smelled the odour of a hot straightener! IT WAS ALIVE AGAIN! My CHI didn't die. I guess it just had some starting problems... oh well, I just straightened my hair and everything's all right again.

At least, for my hair. Because right now I have no clue what to do. I mean, I am finished with my school, people think I'm a ICT specialist, I have one job interview next week, I have to call another office which my uncle offered me via his own company, and guess what - I don't think I'm gonna like what I am supposed to do with my pretty B ICT diploma. Omg. I mean, it's not horrible or something, but it isn't turning me on either. Oh well, at least I finished my school and I have something interesting to put on my resume. And now I've come to a point where I have to decide what I really want in life. I was never really good at deciding, I mean, there were always so so so many options. I just don't know what to do at this point. Right now I am thinking about doing another study, because I don't want to be associated with ICT activities and jobs. But I like so much, I don't know what to choose. And if I choose - what if I don't like it after a year? I really have to choose something I totally love.

Oh well, in the meantime, I'll just try to write my bestseller book. Maybe then I will just get rich and I don't have to work again.

Omg I feel like spending money. Most common objects of my affection are bags and low flared jeans. I know I have a LOT of them, but today I woke up with the feeling I want to have new stuff. Preferably a bag or a new pair of jeans which I, off course, have to shorten. Maybe boredom's the reason for my sudden shopping-crave, but I don't care. I think I'm going through some shops in the Hague, before visiting my sick luvvrrr. Yeah I'm that bad.

I went to have dinner with my bf and a few of his friends at his home last Saturday. We had Chinese takeout and after dinner we wanted to go to the city to maybe see a movie of go bowling or something. Although I felt a bit nauseous, I wanted to join the fun too. But in the elevator on our way out, I felt that this was a wrong decision... but off course, I just proceeded with my wrong decision and when we were walking to the cars, the worst thing happened: I threw up in front of my bf and his male friends omfg! I never throw up in front of guys, I was so embarressed! Luckily I didn't do it in one of their cars lol. When we arrived at the bowling alley - yeah we decided to go bowling - there was another problem: it was all full and we had to wait for an hour. So off course everyone was bummed out and we wanted to leave right away. But when I got out of the bowling centre, I threw up again! And again. And again. I believe I threw up six times that night. I felt sick and we went home were I appeared to have some kind of stomache flu or something. At least, that's what the weekend-doctor told us. But I'm all better now. :) And that's good because today I had an appointment with beautician to have a biopeeling. My friend's aunt is the beautician and we both went to have a biopeeling, we want to have a better skin hehe. Anyway, my face feels weird right now, but they promised me I will have a fabulous skin next week! I can't wait.

Today when I was sitting behind my counter at my work, I helped an old lady and asked her if she wanted a receipt. So I asked her in a polite way if she wanted it. And you know what she answered? That it's not polite to ask if someone wants a receipt, I should've just given her her receipt. Omg. Unbelievable. She continued and said "well, you know, at the AH-store (another supermarket) I always get a receipt without questions." She pissed me off and I said "well, you're not in an AH-store right now." "Yes, I am aware of that", she replied, "but you should just give people their receipt without asking!" I got really angry when she said this, and wanted to start my lecture about wasting paper and people just throwing their receipts at the counter and on the floor when they don't want it. But when I wanted to say something back again, she just cut me off and walked away! I mean, omg, like that's polite? Please lady, go grab your broomstick and fly away to the AH-store to get your fucking receipt already. Because cranky old witches suck.

Wow. This is just so weird. I am finally finished with my school! Although I think the committee asked me the most annoying questions (nothing about iterative development, no it was all about why I made the menu on the left and not on top omfg), I am glad I made it with a 7/10. A big thank you to friends and family who supported me, thanks for the best wishes, the flowers and for standing beside me. :) I am glad that I passed my exam yesterday, also because yesterday was my luvvrr's birthday, so yeah we had a great day hehe. (coming home relieved and taking a nap lol. We're just like old people.)

You know what really pisses me off? I talked about it with two good friends and omg I just couldn't stop talking because all the irritation and frustration started all over again. Anyway. It pisses me of when people think they can make a funny joke out of me, when, guess what, it's NOT EVEN FUNNY and they don't even know me. I mean wtf, you don't even know me so please shut the hell up and start thinking before you open your fucking mouth. Oh and if it's such a funny joke, why say it in a nasty way? That's just not funny and not cool. I know it looks like I'm overreacting, but seriously, I don't like it. It ruins the whole atmosphere for me. (yeah I suck, I am fragile and emotional like that.)

Today I went to The Hague where I cut my hair at a Chinese hair salon. I like the result, dead ends gone and not too much has been cut off. He even straightened my hair! And it was cheap haha. I think I'm going to a Chinese hair salon more often. I also bought a pair of jeans at (off course) Bershka... And it's a miracle, I mean it is so weird... I can wear size 4..? Maybe I lost weight, or maybe they adjusted their small Spanish sizes? I don't know, but it sure feels good haha. But I still have to shorten the legs. :(

omg omg I GRADUATED!!!!!! I'm so happy!!! Ok that's all for now, just wanted to share my joy with the anonymous internet community lol.

We went bowling with some friends and acquaintances yesterday in Scheveningen. It was kind of fun. Ok I suck at it. Especially yesterday. Anyway. Later we went to have dinner get an overdose of cheese in a Mexican restaurant where they wanted to get rid of their overload of this normally tasty dairy. Seriously, I like cheese on a normal day in a normal dose, but this was way too much. My luvvrr got some cool gifts because this whole happening was all because of his 27th birthday. And now, my bowling muscles ache, I long for chocolate, I try to place some remarks in a positive area, I try to find the reason of iterative development, I try to get over a spelling error I just discovered in my essay (I feel so stupid, I HATE SPELLING ERRORS) and my nerves are doing really weird things. And I try to make some sense. Anyway.

I try to read my essay and presentation in order to be prepared for tomorrow's essay meeting. Tomorrow's the big day. I hope I'll pass. Especially because tomorrow is the actual birthday for my bf. Oh Lord please let me have my diploma. I am so nervous. Although you don't see it, you can notice it when I try to start a decent conversation. It's not working. Waaah.

I'm sick all week, but tonight I have to work and tomorrow morning too. But when I woke up this morning I decided to call in sick today. I thought I did a good job calling in sick early, so that maybe they can find someone wo replace me. But no. Instead of that, I am told to call back later in the afternoon, because "maybe I'll feel a bit better and I'm able to work". Omg. It's not like I call in sick just like that, because I have a snotty nose or something. I feel miserable, my throat hurts, my head aches, my lungs feel like they've shrunk, and yet I am told to call back later because maybe I'll feel better! I am one of those people that doesn't call in sick unless I feel really REALLY sick. I've known times where I was feeling and looking sick and I'd still work, and this is what I get back! I think I work there way too long. I think it's time for another job, if they're going to treat me like this. I'm going to call them and tell them I feel sick in about an hour. Because that's what they want, right?

Omg April 11th is coming closer and closer... luckily I just finished preparing my presentation for that day hehe. :) Although it was pretty hard because I feel sick all day. Anyway. So I'm done, I only have to read it for maybe one hundred times and I'm ready for it. I hope it will be a great day, because it is also my bf's birthday. Otherwise I'll be so sad, and he too, because I will be cranky all day crying my heart out. Oh well. Anyway. Think happy thoughts. Pray for me. April 11th. THE DAY. Whaaaa.

And I really hate the fact that I'm suffering from a cold AGAIN... I feel so terrible, my nasal cavity is swollen, I hardly can't breathe through my nose and my head aches, as if someone is hammering in my brains with a huge hammer.  I think I will be taking an overdose of painkillers before I go to sleep, this feeling is driving me nuts.

I was in Amsterdam this last Saturday, because my love wanted to visit a photo academy. And as the good girlfriend I always am (loyal and supportive, as long as he doesn't do naked women's photos otherwise he's dead, because I'm still the good jealous little bitch girlfriend, fragile and insecure :) yep anyway) We were there. We took a horrible picture. (seriously, read the breakout entry a few entries below) It was hot there. And I was surrounded by a lot of photography people while being there,. But later, we also went to the city where the shops are. My lucky moment of the day. Whooo. I feel happy surrounded by shops. I bought a few shirts with bright colours in a Bershka shop. Oh and in the Bershka shop in The Hague, they were playing Nine Inch Nails! Ok uhm. Anyway. I also bought a Shiseido lipstick, Honey Tea S4, it is a really beautiful colour. I think I'm in love with Shiseido right now, I want everything lol. But seriously it is a really great brand, in my opinion. Later at the day we went to have dinner in a lousy restaurant. Worst moment of the day. Seriously. I hope this shitty ass excuse for a restaurant will close its doors soon. I really regret the fact that we ate there, because the service was HORRIBLE, our waitress was a cranky little bitch, she didn't even say thank you when we paid I mean OMG what kind of STUPID ASS WAITRESS ARE YOU. My bf wanted to give her a tip... (yeah I really don't know why, because of the cheap ass ham on his pancake, of the pineapple out of a 34 cent can? of was it the microscopic little bread we ate that came straight out of a 22 cent package? I dunno I still wonder.)... but off course there's when I came in, and we just paid what we had to pay according to the bill, without a tip. She really wasn't worth it. Cheap waitress. Cheap food too. Omg. I wish I could tell the name of the restaurant here just to warn you all, but it was so terrible there that I just forgot the name lol.