I can't believe some guys actually confirm the prejudice of men always talking about pretty women and soccer. Hello, I am so standing next to you, please... There is nothing more irritating than having to eat your meal while forced to listen to the latest soccer game scores and hot women's asses. Really. It's no fun at all.

I covered up my two ":"-like zits with a ton of make up and it looked pretty lookable. Although I hope they'll be history soon, because I feel so terrible with those ugly things on my face. And I also feel terrible that I complain about them like I'm some kind of preppy teenage girl, eww.

Omg I have to prepare my presentation and read my essay and vacuum clean my room and I have to work tomorrow until closing time and omg omg, I am so busy, and just when you think life couldn't get any worse, well, it just does. Yesterday I had two zits on my forehead. One huge and one little. But off course I was being stupid and I wanted to get rid of them and I was starting to break them out. But instead, the next morning I saw that the two had combined their powers and it almost looked like the wanted to merge! And now I have two red spots on my forehead, and they look like the punctuation mark ":" !!!! I have a big red ":" on my forehead just above my left eyebrow! I feel so ugly right now. I know I am not supposed to put make up on them, but off course, vanity drove me to the point where I grabbed my foundation and concealer and just put it on the spots where the zits have been bothering me.

Omg it is as if my computer is turning itself against me. First I had problems with Firefox freezing, which resulted in losing my wishlist whaaa!! Hmm lol ok it could have been worse... like that time a couple of weeks ago when my final school essay wouldn't open itself but instead gave me a bunch of errors... (however luckily my bf's powerbook saved my ass otherwise I could rewrite the whole fucking bookwork, I am seriously considering a mac now lol hmmz)  And now, when I am retouching some photos made at my sister's birthday party, my Photoshop just froze! I just got rid of my zits and bags under our eyes, but now I had to do that again!! I am so angry. I only have to prepare my twenty minute (read: almost neverending) presentation for my final essay meeting, so please PLEASE computer WORK WITH ME. After that, you can just die and I'll throw you out of my window and I'll buy myself a new one.

I have delivered my final essay about my school project this morning, finally. It's a bit of a relief, just a bit, because I still have to prepare a twenty-minute presentation, and I have the slightest idea that the website I made for the project, isn't as finished as I thought. (read: I will get e-mail from the project's principal with comments, comments, comments. argh. will it ever stop. I wonder.) It was really weird today, walking through the hallway of the information science department where I have belonged to for almost the past five years. I went to the canteen to have my favorite kind of chocolate milk, and sais that I might be graduating this year to the woman who ran the canteen. She was always nice to me, she even ordered cream mushroom soup especially for me. So maybe the next month it will be a goodbye. IFFFF I graduate that is. Otherwise, well, it may be goodbye too, because I am going to burn the whole school down if they won't let me graduate. :) Haha. Just kidding. Before anyone calls the cops.

I visited a bunch of sites today, because I was home early and I had nothing better to do. And I haven't visited personal sites for a while, because other activities are sucking up my time and my life. Anyway. I noticed that a lot of sites didn't work with Firefox. (Yeah I know, I was pissed at Firefox a few days ago, and today, well, it crashed again but oh well. ANYWAY.) The websites. Well. I got really weird frames or layers, or some other elements weren't showing up as they were supposed to be. But off course I was kind enough to open them in msie. They were fine in msie, off course. And it's not the end of the world. But I really want things to work with all browsers. Although I have to admit, I have only tested my website in Firefox and msie and Safari. (And I have to admit, the last one is just because my luvvrrrr happens to own a Powerbook and is an Apple worshipper and stuff like that lol) I wonder how my website looks like in, say for example, Opera. Or something. Oh well. I am way too lazy to check it all out in every browser the world owns. It's not like I have that many hits a day haha. But I'm still curious though. I vote for good browser and internet standards. Sometimes I get really pissed when a site (say, for example, my school's portal. omg yes I am a student at the information science department and no one even bothers to check up and follow w3c pff) doesn't show its information correctly, or if it doesn't work. Yeah I know I whine way too much about things that don't actually matter. The only thing that matters is chocolate. I'm hungry.

I got to go to work in about an hour and a half. I don't feel like it. I'm tired. I want to sleep the whole day.

I want to wish my little sister Rachel a happy 18th birthday! Ok I guess that's about it, I have to sleep now because I have to get up early to take care of some things. Like my final school project, and I also have my tenth driving lesson. You know those people who get their driver's licence after maybe two or three months? Well, I guess I'm not one of them. Oh and I would like to share my joy about Biosilk's Silk Therapy. I suggest everyone to buy this wonderful stuff, it makes your hair so silky soft and it smells good!! Seriously, it's a real enjoyment for your hair, I am so in love with it. Ok I am really going to sleep right now.

Ok my essay's finished, FINALLY! I only have to do a whole document re-check and maybe add some more stuff in my evaluation, but that's it! I felt a little bit relieved when I finished the whole damn thing yesterday, until I received an e-mail from my supervisor... My feelings of relief where totally vanished when I read all of her words. She said that the project's principal was complaining to her that he hadn't seen the whole product yet. I couldn't believe what I heard! I also can't believe the tone behind it: it was as if it was ALL my fault. Communication has two sides, now doesn't it? He's the one who didn't always reply my mails! OMG. And you know, I gave him the URL for like AGES ago, he could follow the whole process day by day if he wanted to, he even could've made it his homepage, he could've bookmarked the whole thing. What am I saying?! HE COULD EVEN LOG IN. Omfg. There was that point where I was having a nervous breakdown. I couldn't take it anymore. I felt burning tears behind my eyes, I wanted to scream. After my fit of crying, I tried to keep myself together and I wrote an e-mail back to my supervisor where I told my whole story about the URL-thingey. I know doing a project and keeping contact in an isolated environment wasn't as easy as I thought. Oh well. My superviser answered me back with nice words and saying that I don't need to worry and that I'd learn from it. Oh yes defenitely, I've learned from it: never do a project for someone who's being a total ass.

I guess the only thing I can do at my final essay meeting is surrender and play like it's 100% my fault and that I've learned from it blablabla say all the things they want to hear. Just to hope that they'll let me pass and give me my diploma. I'm so sick of it. Let's get it over with already.

Instead of finishing my essay, I am ordering stuff on the internet. I can't say what I am ordering, because this month is the birthday month and people may read this and the effect of surprise will be gone. I'll order stuff for the little sister and my luvvrrr, but I still have to buy something for the mama. Anyway. You won't believe what just happened to me!!! I was ordering stuff, and I was adding stuff to my wishlist on bol.com and just all of a sudden my firefox just froze! I was really afraid for that to happen, because last week I had the same problem. And off course, EVERYTHING just froze like that, and I had to ctrl alt delete the shit and now everything's gone! :( My whole wishlist and shopping list (and off course there was a LOT that I wanted to have...) was just GONE like that! OMG I AM SO PISSED. Everything's gone. All my hard shopping work online, it was all for nothing. And it's all because of stupid firefox and bol.com. Grrr. I am going to amazon.com and use msie. *angry* Life is just great, it couldn't get any better.

But I really need to work on my essay right now, because the finishing date is coming near. THE END IS NEAR! Hooray. Hopefully it is also almost the end of winter, because I believe tomorrow spring will start officially. And outside I am still suffering from winter temperatures. :( Ok gotto go get busy. Essay. End.

I have to work tomorrow morning and I don't want to get up early. :( I have to do so much. After work I have to go to a party from my bf's sister and grandma's birthday. I hope it will be fun. But with alcohol everything can be fun HAHAAHA OK just kidding. This reminds me of when I was a kid, when I occasionally visited parties that were boring and no fun. Those parties were mostly gatherings of people I didn't know, and I often wondered what the hell I was doing there. But off course I was there because it was the proper thing to do, blablabla actually I really don't know what the hell I was doing there. But I couldn't just leave... hmm. Anyway. The next morning when I wake up in my own house in my own bed I was really happy that the party was over and I felt good being home again. (yeah I wasn't such a party animal I guess) Anyway. Nowadays we have our friend mister bacardi and parties are always fun with it, even when you don't know ANY of the people at the party. Or maybe especially when you don't know any of the people at the party. Anyway. The next morning when I wake up in my own house in my own bad I was really miserable and sick. It's the world gone mad. Oh well. I was really trying to make a point here but I guess I can't and I have to delete all this useless shit but I don't feel like it so I just keep it and post it and everyone will laugh or maybe cry because this all sucks. I still have to do something about the school project's website. And my final essay. I feel miserable already just talking about it. My final meeting where everyone will judge my essay is in April omg. I wish the school wouldn't invite the principal of the project. :( I have a feeling I can't do any good in his eyes. I always have to change change chang CHANGE shit... such as the photos, or the lay out, or the color, or the menu, or WHATEVER I am so so so happy when this all is over. I want to leave this all behind and put it in the back of my head and ignore it FOREVER. Pfff. I still have to pack because I am going to sleep over this weekend at my luvrrr's. <3 I want to use my smelly bag, the one that smells like pot. Everyone's going to think I'm some kind of junkie when they smell that bag. It really smells like pot, I don't know why. It was the first thing that I noticed about the bag. It stinks. I just couldn't figure out what kind of smell it was. It smelled really familiar, and suddenly my dearest yelled POT! And I knew it. He was right. I wish the smell will fade away as soon as possible, it's really disgusting. I even smell it in my sleep, because I put the bag next to my bed. But I was to tired to put it away, so I just slept in the smelly air. Lol. I think I'm going to quit talking nonsense here, because I have some things to do. Photos. Pack my stinky bag. Or maybe pack another bag (one that doesn't smell). And put stuff on my beloved iPod <3 . And maybe get some sleep. Because somehow I have to manage to keep my eyes open tomorrow at work. Oh well. Have a nice weekend.

I ordered a new bag from Friis & Company. It's big and it looks really cool. It only smells like pot, but I don't know why. My final essay is almost finished and I have to deliver it next week the 24th of March. I have to do a whole recheck on all my documentation, make two whole chapters, prepare a twenty minute presentation and I also have to upload a dozen of photo's to the project's website which I also have to resize. :( I'm so sick of everything. Just give me my diploma already. Anyway. Yesterday me and a friend went shopping, and it was really fun. We bought make up and I also bought a pair of jeans (yes again. which I have to shorten. yes again.) and a Emily the Strange shirt and a purple t-shirt from Bershka. Shopping makes me happy.

Consuming a bit too much alcohol is so not good for me. The chance that I made a huge fool out of my self yesterday night is really big. Alcohol always makes me so weird. First it seems like fun, until it drags you down. Down the couch that is. And down to your mind. Everything comes out. I ramble on and on about stupid little things (if I can even remember them), and I always end up rambling about my childhood trauma's such as the fact that I didn't end up at the university, or the fact that I don't have my driver's licence yet. Et cetera. You don't even want to know. Anyway. I need to stop doing this at parties. Especially when I don't know the people. (yes this is a note to self)

Yesterday night I went downstairs to the living room, just to greet my parents before going to bed. But instead of going to bed, I saw that my mom was watching a movie and it just started for like five minutes or something. So I decided to watch it for a while, but after that little while the movie got me hooked. It was the movie House of Sand and Fog and it was so beautiful, so touching. It almost made me cry. I don't want to spoil anything here, you just have to see for yourself.

I got my Chi Turbo 1" Straightener yesterday by mail! I was really happy that I got a new one, since my old one shorted out just like that after ten minutes of normal use. Oh well. I tried it out on my sister's hair yesterday (her hair is pretty curly, even more than mine), and omg it looked so AWESOME. So she's going to the Death Cab For Cutie concert tonight, with pretty straightened hair thanks to me haha. First I was scared that this straightener would short out too, but so far so good and I am going to try it out on my hair soon. But I am so busy lately, I don't know when I'll do it. Oh well, I will be at home these two days, so it really has no use to straighten it now, since I am not going to be outside. (no one will see my hard work, my silky straightened hair haha) Friday I have to work, maybe that's a good day to straighten my hair with my new straightener. LOL.

Ok I have to work on my essay right now once again. :( I wish I could do fun stuff right now. :(

I feel so modern nowadays with my newly bought domain and webspace. And let's not forget about PHP (we all love open source now don't we), it is totally my friend right now. But that's just only because I can figure it out with the help of Pivot. Otherwise I'd be back at pitas.com or whatever because I am busy being pissed and feeling stupid for not being able to figure out some open source shit. Oh well. It works. (for now anyways, we'll see what problems the future will bring...yeah.) Anyway. Life goes on. I have to deliver my end essay before 24th of March, and I am very busy with it. (sometimes) I bought a new pair of pants from Bershka today, along with 2 very cute longsleeves, a pink one and a black one. It totally rocks (off course), can't wait for spring to come.